June 5, 2014

They should have told me.....

Things that they should have told me earlier:

They said that SPM is gonna be tougher than PMR, how i wish they would tell me that it is not everything that i should focus on.

They said that i should be brilliant student, cause afterall, it's the brain that matters. How i wish they would tell me that personality would be equally important too.

They said that it's okay to just pass the exams, tests n etc. How i wish they would tell me that it is not okay to be average.

They said that it is normal that we don't get the job immediately after finish our studies. How i wish they would tell me that it only applies for 'The Average'.

They said that plenty of job offers are waiting for the engineer graduates. How i wish they would tell me that there is plenty of engineer graduates to occupy it too.

They said not to worry about this matter. How i wish they would tell me that they felt the same anxiousity too.

They said that i will gain so many friends here. How i wish they would tell me how hard the goodbye will be.

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I know that there are bigger problems to solve. As for me, for this time being, this is my biggest concern. As a future graduate.

I am not bragging nor getting proud of it. It is just that. Miserable. Right now, it is.

This is how miserable I am. You know, getting near an edge. Which i had no clue of what the future holds. That was scared me the most.

Redundant. I've told you so many times. And i will tell you hundred times more.

I am in the middle.
To enjoy my upcoming free time or to struggle finding a job.
To find a job or to continue study.
To find a job that suits my education or that suits my taste.
To let it be or to not let it be.

For sure, i've learned a lot from this place.
For sure too, i will miss the place.
For the most certain, i will miss my friends. (TT_TT)

Sincerely, Amelia.